How's your break?

Thanks to this break i've got some mission accomplished such as, well...

1. Had improved my doggie-style-swimming
2. My cinnamon banana pancake was getting amazing
3. Laziness level was up to its highest level
4. Do nothing

Sooo i guess they're just excuses for me being ultra unproductive lately. Things just got real shit sobs just why brain why

*take a nap instead*

Fangirl-me

"Being a fangirl is a bliss"

So here I am writing this because people often misjudged us, and pardon me I might be losing myself on my exaggerated style of writing, but once again it's up to you whether you want to read it or no. 

Fangirl. Yes. People might be judging negatively about us. But we don't care. I don't care. As for your information, being a fangirl not only belong on k-pop stuffs. I fangirling over books and fictional characters too. And some authors maybe. And my life seems perfect with them. I think it's natural having things you love. Am I an introvert person? Sometimes yes, but I think there are times when I'm not. Fangirl is just like common people since almost everybody barely acknowledge them. We might be have our own world but it's not that we didn't need you people in our main world. Some says to understand someone, you have to walk with their shoes. Sooo, in a way ahead, treat us better, okay? :)

Just as a my-own-reminder-for-later and as-i-remember-by-now. Currently-and past- stuffs I've been fangirling over are: (maybe it's wiser for dividing them through categories lol)

Music stuffs: Super Junior, CN Blue, Goose House, JKT48 (it's pretty hard to admit but hell implicitly yes)

Books: harry potter, percy jackson, heroes of olympus series, divergent series, ouran kouou host club

Authors: rick riordan, he's so funny even with sarkasm

And maybe there are so much more in appleskymemories.tumblr.com since I do fangirl stuffs on that blog

Hanya aku, dan kotak surat elektronik yang masih kosong

Jemariku bergerak lincah di atas keyboard laptopku-- atau kuharap begitu. 

Hai, kamu. 

Tadinya kukira aku dapat menuangkan segalanya dalam secarik email karena, hei, kau tahu aku menyukai surat. Menurutku surat merupakan satu-satunya media dimana kita bisa menyentuh kenangan (selain kamu tentunya), tapi rupanya persoalan ini begitu mendesak. Aku takkan sanggup bila harus mencari kotak pos terdekat, atau sekedar membeli perangko. 

Hai, kamu.

Apa kabar? Sedikit berbasa-basi tidak ada salahnya bukan? Bagaimana kehidupanmu sejak terakhir kali kau menghubungiku? Apakah nama lahirmu masih dilupakan?

Baik, mungkin sedikit flu. Tidak masalah menurutku. Kau mau jawaban jujur atau tidak? Dan untuk pertanyaan ini, kau akan menceritakan panjang lebar tentang orang-orang yang mulai menenggelamkan nama lahirmu dan memanggilmu dengan nama baru, tapi kau tidak akan mempermasalahkan hal itu.

Ya, aku yakin kau akan menjawab seperti itu, seperti dirimu yang biasanya. Ah, apakah benar aku masih diperbolehkan untuk mengenal dirimu yang biasanya? Atau kau mempunyai dirimu yang lain yang belum kau tunjukkan di depanku? Hai, senang berkenalan denganmu juga, dan lagi. Aku takkan keberatan.

Oh iya, persoalan yang mendesak, ya? Ah, bagaimana ya cara mengatakan (mengetik)-nya? Aku bukanlah tipikal orang yang pintar dalam merangkai kata, tapi kamu tak akan menemukan diriku mengatakan hal ini langsung di hadapanmu. Kontradiksi lagi bukan? Aku tak akan mengatakan aku merindukanmu, ataupun mengetiknya. Tapi-- oh, aku baru saja melakukannya.

Hai, kamu.

Tidak ada apa-apa. Ini hanya aku. Oh, mungkin aku harus menghapus tulisan ini.

All hail grandma

12:09 AM, just arrived on grandma's house over 7 hours journey.
me about to sleep when suddenly

knock knock
grandma: dinner?
me: oh please what time is it now, grandma?
grandma: cake?
me: noooope, i'm sleepy
grandma: apples? i'll peel some for you
me: i just want to sleep, pleaseee. I think I got a carsick
grandma: pudding? you know, i just made it and it's really tasty you'll like it
me: OKAY GRANDMA YOU WON JUST BRING THOSE SHIT TO ME

You know you can't beat grandma for feeding you, in ANY time. She even could woke you up and offers food. And you have to bear with it. Yep.

Dan rasanya aku semakin tua

Dan terkadang ketika kamu menoleh ke belakang, mendadak kamu dihantam sebuah kesadaran. Ya, seharusnya kamu tidak melewatkannya. Bagaimanapun, meski itu bukan hal yang sangat krusial. Tetap saja. Tapi, hei, kamu masih hidup, angin tetap berhembus, dan aku cukup yakin kosmik masih mempunyai stok kejutan lain untukmu. Bisa jadi kejutan yang masih sama, jika kamu berdoa cukup kuat untuk itu.