It hurts.

And you said that you were sure that we won't be broken up because of third party but still, you were with her.

You said that you can't go on without me that you need my presence but still,  you left.

Recently it's been extremely hard to love myself. Like I am and will never be enough. Like I'm the dumbest person on the planet. I saw this coming but still, I stayed. I wished you stopped normalized cheating like there's any reasonable excuse out there. I wished I had listened to my intuition. I wished I had enough courage to let go.

I hate this side of me. I hate this.

I even hate all of this because I can't say anything to anyone and let it left in on the drafts. It still hurts.